It feels like it has been forever sense I have posted a blog, and it was about our upcoming joint account!! Which we did open up, yaaay and have some money stuck away into!! After our quick nuptials, we will be turning it into our honey moon fund, which we plan on taking about a year after our wedding!! That day seems like so far away, we opened the account like a month ago and it feels like it's been a year!! We are now getting ready to turn the savings only into our joint checking account! How excitting....then I get the joy of becoming the little house wife who pays all the bils and manages the money to make sure we arn't over spending. I honestly never thought that I would ever be that person, and I am honestly looking forward to it. Life has officially gotten insane..not long after discussing with Peachy-O and Grandma about moving up the wedding and putting that act into motion, things took a turn for the worst. We got her set up on at home hospice, which is a wonderful program for her. She has her own personal nurse that comes when ever my grandma needs it, and they have a compeletely on call staff. We actually just interviewed and hired a volunteer through their program to come in and spend some time with my grandma while I go out to do errands for the house, and the wedding. She will be starting in may, which is excitting. Trying to juggle having some one in the house with her all times and get things done has become a bit of a chore and at times very draining. And on that note, we have gotten to the point were she can't be alone any more, she is capable of doing most things alone, but has lapses in strong panic attacks and breathing issues. Her medicines have been increased significantly, and some days she is unable to get out of bed. I have taken on the role of her full time care taker, and house keeper. I never realised how big our house was until I started cleaning all 4 bedrooms plus dinning room, kitchen, living room, and sun room and taking care of the front and back yard. I wake up at 6am most days and don't hit the bed until 1 or 2 because there is so much to constantly be done. I am up alot with her doing medicine as well...that comes and goes...some nights I get to sleep for more than an 1 1/2, other nights im up every hour or so doing medicines or taking care of her. I'm not sure how any one can do this for a living and take care of multiple people. I know I am over doing it and burning myself out, but I want to make sure she is well taken care of, so I am doing every little possible thing that I can. It's really hard to see her in such terrible states, and breaks my heart. And along with her progressively getting worse...my family has been at my house every day it feels like. I am completely burnt out, theres always some one who dosn't live here, here!! I am constatantly playing hostest when all I want to do is crawl into bed and sleep for a week....family we havent' seen in years is coming to visit her. Which is wonderful for her, and she is enjoying it. I am just being selfish and wishing people would leave us alone for a few days!! I know things could be so much worse, so I really have no right to complain...but its alot to take all in.
In the middle of all of this going on, Peachy-o started moving his things in :-) We are getting settled in as a happy little family, and it's been really nice to have him here to help out and be my extra support. He still has alot to move in, and I am having a hard time finding the time to get over to his apartment to help him pack up and get moved out so Beth and Danny can finally have full range of his old bedroom!! I have been tearing apart of our fully furnished (grandmas fully furnished) house to make room for his large things...and it just seems like there is no room for anything because now there is to much to make the house flow....our dinning room currently had a nice twin size bed just sitting in it because I don't want to get rid of it incase we need it for when my grandma progesses and I need some additional help. All my things are being donated or given away because I need to make space for his items. I broke down hysterically when I started packing everything up in my old bedroom so we could turn it into a den for him to put his computer and television in, along with his giant brown chair that takes up large amounts of space! I've moved, left everything behind, and started over and never had such a strong reaction to gettign rid of so many of my personal things. I think its because I've finally established who I am and these are the things that I have always kept very carefully. I decided to keep some of my books but everything else is gone. I want to make him feel as comfortable as possible, and I am realising moving a pretty much full apartment at one point into my full house is just a mess. It's time to go through things and donate to the good will...which I have been doing on my own for the last few weeks! And with our wedding coming up...if we get anything at all that we registered for...we will have 4 sets of dishes, silver ware, and all that jazz....haha I do believe we are very lucky to not have to go with out...but its insane that we all kind of want to hold on. So I am giving up all my outside life stuff, I'm donating most of my dishware I bought myself when living in Walnut Creek, beings alot of it was taken from me or broken and I'm left with large mis matched everything.
And then there is the wedding...soooo much going on!! Ive bought my wedding dress, we got our bridesmaids dresses, his suit, his groomsmens clothes, my grandma got her dress, his mom got her dress, I have my flower girls dresses, my nephews and escorts suite. I have decided to do mainly silk floweres due to our budget and lack of time to go and pick out flowers and create boquets on my own.I did buy fresh flowers for the botioneers and corasages for the mothers. Peachy-s mom was so sweet and gave us money to order flowers with, which is why I get to have some fresh flowers at the wedding as well :-D We have our center pieces, china rented, our drink ware and silver wear purched. We rented all our linens, I've maid appointments to get my hair done, my make up done, and will be calling tommorow to get my nail appointment set up. And there is still so much that needs to be done!! I am one lucky niece, my Aunt and her boyfriend will be cooking the main meats for our wedding tri-tip and chicken! And one of my best friends mother will be helping me make a pasta dish...along with regular salads and such will be served as well!! I bought our cake and the cupcakes we will be serving were gifted to us by a family friend, and I am so excittied to the final product of them!! We are currently working on getting our music done, thank goodness for such an amazing friend who is a music whiz! He will end up being my DJ, and at some point we havent decided, singing at my wedding, which is going to make me cry like a baby!! And of cousrse our photography has been taken care of! My best friend and her amazing husband have gotten us 3 hours with a very nice photographer!! I am so blessed in so many ways even though all I want to do is complain!! AHHHH! We also got our officient, have him paid for, and our wedding cermony in the works!! Some time last week (All my days now officially run into each other is getting rediculous) We even went over and got our wedding certificate! So we are very well on our way to being Mr. and Mrs. Jameson Harrigan! I am so excitted and soooo ready for this all to be over!! We have our co-ed bridal shower coming up next weeked and we are both looking forward to seeing our friends and family with out having it be around such a sad situation!! Things all coming along and more than I could have asked for in most aspects!! I can't believe I've managed to find the time to sit down and type this...and I'm sure i've missed so much thats happened! But myn brain is such a mush, I am going to end it on this! 5 more weeks <3 I can't wait! It's going to be the perfect day with all those we love, we are both so blessed with such amazing family and friends who are willing to help us!
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