What a productive day today!! My Peacho and I went and opened our joint savings account for our wedding YAAAY!! It went pretty smoothly, we despoited the amount of money that we had on hand for today and it is done! So we are well on our way for saving money for a wedding sometime next year...maybe next year! I honestly thought I'd be more excitted but the excitement of opening our savings account and starting to plan a wedding was quickly squashed...
On our way back to my house Peacho decided to ask me if I thought about who was going to do the photography at our wedding. Why yes yes I have I know exactly who I want to do the photography at our wedding...how ever its never going to happen due to the fact that she would cost more than our estimated budget for sed wedding! Sooo no I havent thought about any one else...and then the realisation dawned on me. We have a loose amount set, very low. That there is no way I'm going to be able to afford a photographer that suits my style and expectations. I then realised that the most important thing to me about my wedding aside from my venue is infact my photos. Being a photographer myself my expectations are so high its pretty dumb and that is when the tears started to come. Peacho, not so worried about the photos he could care less who took them as long as they were some what in focus and you could make out who was in the pictures. Then the realisation started to set in..this may all be just a big fantasy and a wedding may not even be an option. I know that I have to budge and give alot due to money situations which I am willing to do, and we have options such as friends and family that may be able to help. But I want them to be able to enjoy the festivities and am not exactly on board with every ones styles. So here I am a grumpy bleary eye'd mess. The excitment of the engagement compeltely gone and the reality of these hard times and financial situations hitting me like a ton of bricks. So the excitment of opening our savings account is gone and replaced with the sadness that is tree's are not made of money, and we don't always get what we and sometiems not even close to it! A very large adventure into the world of weddigs today. A sad one at that. Hopefully I will find a new outlook and some god options! Keeping my fingers crossed!
Keep your head up HIGH! Good things will come to you...I promise! I'll keep my fingers crossed and we'll definitely figure out what to do!
ReplyDeleteOh Whit!!! you bring tears to my eyes =(
ReplyDeleteI just want you to know i know how you feel. Chris and I have had to reschedule our wedding becuz of finances. We as women know what we want when it comes to marrying the man of our dreams....and trust me you have all the time in the world to make it happen. Sometimes its just about tweeking a few things so that you still have everything you wanted. If you need any helpn what so ever in figuring out budgets or tweeking the few things...like finding a photographer and a cheap but elegant spot to have the wedding....let me know. I am full of wedding info and I would love to help you make sure you two get the wedding of your dreams. So keep your head up like Kim said...and remember that you deserve the best...and you will get it on your wedding day...which is when??
Kimber Thank you :-) I know they will. It was just an in the moment terrible feelig coming to the realization I hand't thought about the photography due to the fact that I knew that was EXACTLY what was going to happen to me. I bounced back pretty quickly. And Burbie...money sucks!! Lol I am sorry you guy's had to reschedule the wedding...which is to what date now? I don't really have any expectations of anything else. I want it really relaxed not over done...hopefully good food and drink...good music which if the conversation I had the other night with my dear friend Mr.Woodside I will, and good times. And if I need any help I will let you know:-) As of right now I'm just trying to get some money stashed away so we can have the option of a cheap but elegant wedding!! We have not set a date...we are hovering between May-July of 2012. It will all depend on his student teaching because I like the idea of a sunday wedding!! But we shall see!! Thank you both for you support and understanding my little tirade!
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